Well I have an interview today. I don't normally get nervous but I am today. I suppose I am thinking that Cath finishes work in July, the baby is due in September. It falls on my shoulders to provide
You know what though? Even though I feel this pressure, I know that ultimatley it is God who provides all that I have. We were asked a couple of weeks ago, what do we value? What would we find difficult to give up? I felt that honestly there wasn't a single item I own that I would be unwilling to give up; even my guitar! Instead I realised that my family is so much more important.
Before I went to university I went to Kazaksthan. I remember going into the home of a lad we met out there. I was offered a peach and a glass of water. I later found out that most of the people in Tashkent were struggling to make ends meet, large families in small accomodation, intermitant electricity, teachers having market stalls as they weren't getting paid, police officers stopping people and fining them for offences as they werent getting paid either. They were a generous people with what little they had. At this moment I earn nothing, I am unemployed but I have so much. I can celebrate God's provision and learn a little of what it means to be content in all circumstances
Phil 4:10-14 I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. 11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength. 14 Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles.
I won't know today whether I have a new job or not, I will find out in a few days time but what I do know is that God will provide.
